tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-87358414200622132482024-03-13T20:32:44.353-07:00Garden StreetAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04824860421885205413noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8735841420062213248.post-43914655207867300372013-03-03T18:32:00.001-08:002013-03-03T18:39:19.168-08:00<br />
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif; font-size: small;">Today I spent some time planning my summer 2013. I don't have much yet, many decisions to make still. But it brought memories from my 2012 summer, how wonderful it was in spite of some disappointments with my own expectations. Here is what i wrote:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif; font-size: small;"><span style="color: #20124d;"><i><b>"I want to be surprised by God, I don't need to know everything...a surprise makes life exciting! "</b></i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif; font-size: small;"></span><span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif; font-size: small;">"At
the end of the school year I was all excited about my summer, thinking
with a hopeful mind about what was lay ahead. I planned only two
domestic trip in June and July. A mission trip top the Bronx for a week,
and a bike ride to Goshen Indiana. I'm
almost in my forties, single, Latina, speaking English as a second
language. The idea of getting married sounds like a miracle. I decided
to intervene in my situation and make and effort to meet "My suitable
help" How? Going back to e harmony. Results? got overwhelmed with all
the questionnaires and disliking the fact to go out with strangers. But
my adventurous spirit came out and I did try it. None of the dates work
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif; font-size: small;">My summer is almost over I haven't met my guy, but on the
contrary I met "the GUYS", four beautiful men with a heart that overflows
with God's love. In addition I got to know ten wonderful ladies that
has brought laughter to my life. Friendship is a kiss from God. Now I'm leaving this Friday to bike 350 miles...I'm sure that I will meet loving gentlemen, and more ladies
that will add more positive insights to my life, life is good..."</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">My ride is a precious memory that I will never forget, It went well. I discovered a hidden joy in pedaling, I learned many life lessons, pain brings satisfaction at the end....I know this summer will be different. I'm taking a group of students to the Bronx, right now I'm praying that God will provide more adults for this trip. Turkey, Ecuador and more biking, are possibilities, maybe sky diving..but definitively no more "attempts" to meet "someone". No more e harmony, or blind dates..I just want to enjoy what I have, I have too much, I want to love and serve people around me. Welcome to my forties!</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04824860421885205413noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8735841420062213248.post-63140264799249205162012-07-26T08:17:00.000-07:002012-07-26T08:19:18.148-07:00<span lang="en"><span title="Parecer?a que Dios siempre me da lo que no quiero.">A
year ago, I wrote this entry in my journal. When I was feeling up in
the air with my job situation. After few months, things came
trough and clear. The waiting was worth it! <br /><br />"It seems that God always gives me what I don't want. </span><span title="Porque lo que quiero no me da supuestamente."> </span><span title="Pero ?que es lo que quiero?">But what do I want? </span><span title="?No es cierto que siempre ando diciendo que quiero su voluntad en mi vida?">Isn't it true that I'm always saying I want God's will in my life? </span><span title="Entonces ?Por qu? digo que no me da lo que quiero?">So why do I say He doesn't give me what I want? </span><span title="Dios es Soberano, Rector del universo, por ende de mi vida.">God is Sovereign, <span style="color: red;"><span style="color: black;">King</span> </span>of the universe and hence Lord of my life. </span><span title="El ve lo que yo no veo, sus pensamientos exceden los m?os, tanto que me averg?enza el solo hecho de comparar.">He sees what I don't see, His thoughts exceed mine, I am ashamed even to compare myself with Him. </span><span title="Hoy despu?s de algunas d?cadas vividas, puedo confirmar esta din?mica divina y humana, porque lo he visto constantemente, en m? y en las vidas de los que me rodean.">Today,
after several decades lived, I can somehow understand this human
dynamic . A struggle constantly present in me and in the lives of those
around me. </span><span title="Esta lucha siempre empieza con algo, disfrazado de una idea, etc.; algo que deseo, algo que quiero alcanzar desesperadamente, algo que sue?o d?a y noche, entonces lo pongo en oraci?n de rodillas, a veces con lagrimas para ver si puedo convencer al">This
fight always starts disguised as an idea, becoming a desire, something I desperately want to achieve, something that I
dream day and night. I'm on my knees praying fervently... sometimes with
tears, maybe I can convince the </span><span title="Dios Todopoderoso; ?resultado?">God Almighty. Results? </span><span title="Nada de nada. result? ser que lo que estaba deseando al final de cuentas no era lo Dios tenia para mi, no era lo m?s conveniente; pero en el momento que lo quer?a no lo entend?a.">Nothing, empty hands... I did not get what I wanted. Later, resignation...and then when I am</span><span title="Pero tengo que decir que despu?s de un tiempo ya serena, llena de paz y viendo los resultados de no haber obtenido lo que quer?a, me r?o, y me quedo en silencio, anonadada ante la Omnisciencia de Dios, no pod?a haber sido mejor."> calm, quiet, reflecting of the results of not getting what I wanted, I just laugh, and stand in stunned...
silence before the omniscience of God. He knows what is best. </span><span title="Por supuesto tambi?n he visto oraciones contestadas inmediatamente, despu?s de declarar o proclamar por aquello.">Of course I have also seen prayers answered immediately after asking for it!<br />
</span><span title="Asi que por esa razon, cuando atraviese por momentos donde estoy sujeta a la espera de mis anhelos, donde los d?as se hacen largos, llenos de ansiedad y curiosidad.">So
for that reason, when I go through moments where my desires are on the
pending list, where the days seem too long, when I'm full of anxiety and
curiosity to know what is going to happen...God, r</span><span title="Debo de recordar que no puedo tomar ni por un segundo el papel de Dios, yo no puedo ver todo para entender y desear correctamente, as? que en momentos de dudas Padre, pon fe, en momentos de desanimo pon fuerzas para no dejarme vencer por pensamientos">emind
me I can not take even a second to play YOUR role. I don't have the
capacity to see the whole picture, and to ask for things correctly. In moments of
waiting give me
faith, replace discouragement for hope. Give me strength to not give up
into thoughts </span><span title="de derrota, que las victorias pasadas en mi vida me reconforten, me inspiren y que de los tiempos de tristeza aprenda a no repetir los mismos errores.">of
defeat. I pray that the past victories will comfort and inspire me to
go on in peace, and to not repeat the same mistakes all over again.<br />
</span><span title="Padre, esta es mi oraci?n sincera en un momento de espera.">Father, this is my sincere prayer at a time of waiting.</span></span>"<br />
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